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I didn’t even realize it, but I had started identifying so much with DFW that I had assumed part of him into my own identity. The character Hal Incandenza, in Infinite Jest, you see, is very, very much like myself. And this is what I didn’t even realize, but… I had started using hal as my login for various websites—meaning short for ‘Halsey’—but it didn’t hit me until after his passing that it was also Hal’s name. Silly me. That’s how much, I suppose, that I identified with Harold Incandenza, tennis star and English language genius of the highest caliber. So yeah, I had started calling myself ‘hal’ instead of ‘billifer’… and I had no idea it was because of DFW. But, of course, now I totally realize it.
Goodbye, DFW. Goodbye, Hallie.
I often wonder whether genius writers feel the pressure and the expectation to die young: they aren't truly worthwhile authors if not, perhaps. 'Tis but one more reason I had to stop writing. I couldn't allow myself to feel the expectations: "great writers are alcoholics" and "great writers kill themselves." And I wanted to be a great writer.
Or maybe it had nothing at all to do with his writing. Perhaps he did it for one of the many reasons that I myself have contemplated. No one but he can ever know.